Big Brother

Today I am most thankful for my big brother Prophet Brandon E Perkins. I met Brandon in the summer of 2002; just a few months after my father died. For 16/17 years he has been a constant voice of God in my life. Before I was able to hear God for myself or trust what i was hearing he was like my most secure line directly to God. Like every set of siblings we've been through some crazy things together and in our relationship; but we've gotten through all of them. About 3 years ago he moved to Florida for school and to live. When he got there he got sick and he's been outrunning death, in my opinion, for the past 3 years. I've seen him look like death and I've heard him sound like he wanted to give up....but he is still here and prayerfully will be for many years. This was just something I was feeling in my heart today. God I thank you for my brother. For the blessing that he is. For being faithful to him as he has been to you. I pray you heal him, and keep him around for so long.

10/16/2013

Today I am thankful: For a new day. For all of the feel good music I listed to this morning That it is already Wednesday That we have Word Explosion tonight That this morning I was reminded how important a smile is That I was reminded how important a thank you is That I made a mental list of all of the things that I am grateful for That I have finished so much of my work already. That music is so healing and freeing That life truly is al about persepective

10/15/2013

Today I am thankful for.... The ability to pay bills (though I don't want to spend my money on necessities) That we have prase and worship rehearsal tonight That God reminds me of his love even when I'm messing up That God is teaching me to hold my anger That thought it seems to be a slow process things are changing in me That I can smile That I have the activity of my limbs That today is a new day with new possibilities and new hopes.

10/14/2013

Today I am thankful: That our 15th paycheck went through early. That I got to spend some time with Bell this weekend That I was able to go to support Brian, even if only for a little bit, this morning That there was so much confirmation for me thsi weekend from Marlene and Brandon That we had 3 great services yesterday That God is truly working in the leaders That I think God is going to help me with this fear of singing That everything happens for a reason That I was able to stay awake during my drive into work That he protects me from dangers seen and unseen. That the reintroduction of meat in my diet hasn't made me sick.

10/10/2013

Today I am thankful: At the way my FFEM family came together for Tina's memorial service yesterday. That it was truly a homegoing service That we were able to make her family smile That FFEM always comes together in times of need That today is the last day of the fast and that God did move during that time That God grants us new mercy everyday That though it was hard God moved That Tina's entire immediate family accepted Christ yesterday! That death can't hold her down because she knows the risen king!!!!!

10/9/2013

Today I am thankful: For Tina's life. For the genuine smile that I was able to witness o her face some days. For the love I got to watch her give her children. I am thankful for the children that she had that will have her legacy live on forever. I am thankfulf for the wake up call and sense of urgency that her death has spread within me. I am thankful for the reminder that life is precious, and fleeting. I am thankful that she knew God. I am thankful for the celebreation of her life that we will be having later today. I am thankful for God who does things that I don't undderstand but dopes everything right. I am thankful that I am able to get off early for the memorial. I am thankful that Jesus died for us and that he is now turly comforting Tina. I am thankful that since she knows God, death cannot hold her down, and her spirit is already risen!

10/8/2013

Today I am thankful for: A new day That my "problems" aren't nearly as big as other people's problems That you are carrying our churh through this rough time That through it all you are good and faithful That nothing is ever as bad as it seems That all things work together for my good That I got the bulk of my work done by 10am That you are God and I'm not