9/30/2013

Today I am thankful: That I was able to go buy some new clothes That I was able to get some rest in That I have received so much confirmation through God's word That I have a Spiritual Father who truly loves me and is pushing/pulling me (kicking and screaming) into my greater That God didn't let me slip up the way my flesh wanted to That temptation is becoming great, which means that I am close to my breakthrough, and to what God has for me in this season That i was able to recognize the enemy this time That I know that it is not the person anymore, but the enemy using the person That God always provides a way of escape for a temptation That Jesus keeps looking out for me That my heavenly big brother, my savior, my all in all is looking down on me and is trying to help me through this time, and I am starting to finally let Him That the Lord will always do just what he said. That God has a plan, and I don't know all the details, but I know that it is a good plan and that it is the best plan for my life That today has not been as crazy as the previous Monday's this month. That it is the last day of the month That God kept my brother from doing something stupid yesterday That God keeps giving words to my Pastor that he needs right now That I am getting back to the place that I was, with my other brother That God is in control, and I'm not.

9/27/2013

Today I am thankful: That it is Friday That I do not have to come backto owrk until Monday That I am a girl who ismade happy by the simple things For the ability to write For my brother, BHerd who lets me vent to him That God is teaching me to operate outside of how I feel That I'm still allowed to pray That God still speaks to me though his workd For music For pretty colored pins For having my favorite soup at Panera That my problems are all first wrld problems That though progress is slow, I am growing That there are less than 2 hours left in the work day/week That I get to look at a pretty new nail color as I type That I was able to afford what I wanted today, and all my needs are met.

9/26/2013

Today I am thankful that.... It is Thursday That I was able to spend some me time this morning That my grandmother is still living and very able bodied That God moved me when he did That today has been a pretty great day That God is healing me beyond what I imagined and inspite of my hinderances That Brey is out of surgery That Bri is getting his hand looked at That thsi morning seemed perfect, and it was really just my alone relaxing time That I am ablye to put gas i the car That I was able toget my nails done That it is time to start putting fall colors on my nails. That Iwas able to listen to my gmom for a little bit That Ciara's baby will be here in like 2 months That God listend to me even when I'm not making sense to myself That I have been smiling more lately That I am able to eat some of my favoirte soups during this fast, and that I realized it before it was over That God keeps blessing me beyond what I deserve That Josh has a large number of colleges seeking him out That my family is healty, and mostly happy That I really don't have anything to truly complain about That God is showing me more and more that complaining doesn't do anything for any situaion. That each day is a new day with brand new possibilities. For music, per the usual For scripture th

9/25/2013

Today I am thankful for..... The fact that it is alrady Wendesday. That when I was down to my last dime the Lord stpped in right on time ( and kept my account from overdrafting). That God is continually looking out for me That I got to talk to my brother, B.Perk this morning That rehearsal was amazing That Kelly finally got to the doctors That my morning is going well That I have gotten most of my morning work done That I am slowly but surely breaking my addict behaviors with my phone, emails, and even chats That God is proud of any progress I make, even if it is small That God doesn't just give me the virtues that i ask for, the fruit of the spirir, he puts me in situations to exercise them so that they can grow That I'm learning not to be moved by what I see, but only by what God says about the situation, I HEAR GREATER!!!!

9/24/2013

Today I am thankful..... That I was able to put that check in my account and they said it should be available tomorrow That I don't feel as broke as I did yesterday, even though there are still only $3.00 currenty available in my account That I was able to get so much accomplished by 10 am today That I am not feeling as tired or overwhelmed as I was yesterday That God gives us new mercies everyday That Bri-bri gets his cast off today That we have rehearsal tonight, I think That you God gives us the opportunity to hange our attitude about everyday That it's never as bad as it seems That God is preparing me for even greater than I can see or understand right now That my growth isn't for me, its for the people that God is going to reach through the calling he's placed on me That God even saw fit to call me even though I am a complete wreck That even if no one else sees it, I am growing, my attitude is changing, my feelings are evolving, walls are slowly, but surely coming down That God sees me for who I will be and not for who I am That God gifted me with that part of his personality, that has the ability to see better in people than what they are displaying, sometimes That I am not God, I'm overwhelemed sometimes with my little responsibilities, I could not deal with me, more less the gazillion other people on the planet, the planet itself, and the entire solar system. That God is bigger than and greater than anything That He loves me, even when I fall, fail, and disgrace His name.

9/23/2013

Today I am thankful..... That God reminded me that He's still able That it's not as bad as it seems That all things work together for my good because I love God That God is always looking out for m and reminding me how much he loves me For my church family For the person God is molding me into For life, love, friendship, music, alone time, together time, everything

9/21/2013

Today I am thankful: That last night's leaders meeting was so amazing That I got a chance to talk to me brother Ron and fix everything That service tonight went well For the amount of anointing running wild in FFEM That tonight was an early night That tomorrow is going to be an amazing day at service That though my check has not yet come, that it is in the mail That tomorrow is going to be an amazing day!

9/20/2013

Today I am thankful: That it is Friday That it is Marianne's birthday That she is the type of friend that I don't have to see daily but she knows I love her That we only are working for 2.5 hrs and then it is the company picnic I am thankful that we have a leadership meeting tonight I am thankful for God's word that corrects, confirms, and encourgaes To work for a company that is all about togetherness To be who I am, and where I am......God hasn't given me anything that I am not yet ready to handle, and I am learning to accept that.

9/19/2013

Today I am thankful that: Today is the last real work day of the week That I have finally finalzied things for the accident That the Lord always steps in RIGHT on time That God is in control That I have no other choice but to trust him, God That music is so great That these Ranch Style Veggie Straws that I'm eating are amazing

9/18/2013

Today I am thankful: That yesterday completed a week of the leader's fast That it is already Wednesday That Jess is going to tear the house down tonight That I am almost done with the ordeal from the accident That God provides for me That God chastises me when I need it That I have a job to come to That I have a way to get here That my attitude is being curbed, even though it seems that it is taking an extremely long time That I can deep breath I am thankful for heat because it was super cold this morning I am thankful that fall weather is back, which means fall clothing is back (boots, scarves, cardigans) I am thankful that my brother, Mike, is like officially back I am thankful that Brey got cleared for her surgery I am thankful that Kelly got her new dinning room set I am thankful for prayer, and that God still listens to me whine and beg for forgivness for the same things I am thankful that He is teaching me to forgive myself I am thankful that I don't have to be a slave to the same sin I am thankful for growth.

9/17/2013

Today I am thankful: That it is already Tuesday That God spoke to me through song and I realize exactly where I am That he is healing me, and though the healing process hurts, and is slightly irritating, and itchy it will all be for my good That I am learning to stay in my lane and be unconcerned with the things that do not concern me That I no longer allow other people's attitude to change my mood (fo as long as i used to) That I am learning that the only validation that I need is from God, through his word That everything gets better with a deep breath That music is always available That I don't have to worry, God has already asked for all of my worries and said he would take care of it.

9/16/2013

Today I am thankful: That every event went well for the kids this weekend That they had fun at movie night That I could keep my promise to Brey and Azzie and take them to Kiwi That everyone had a ball at Dorney That I don't have to argue my point ever, that God always covers me and what people say is not the end all be all That God confirmed what he was saying to me through my Prophet That it makes the journey a little easier when you understand the method or the way a little better That this monday has been pretty good so far That I am believing for a quick, productive, fulfilling work week with minimal stress That I was able to talk with the finance team and we seem to be on one accord That each person's journey is different and though I've screwed up, you still seem to want to use me. Thank you for a spirit of thankfulness

9/13/2013

Tody I am thankful..... That it is Friday That it is payday That my drive in wasn't too bad That I got to talk with my brother this morning That i tracked my bestie down yesterday That we have movie night for the kids That the break schedule didn't take too long to create That I don't have to do a meeting recap That the emails are finished and that it took less than an hour That this work week is almost over That I am believing God for an amazing day, and because I believe with NO doubt it will be so. Amen

9/11/2013

Today I am thankful that it is the 1st day ofthe leaders 30 day fast I am thankful for the downtime at work that is allowing me to get some studying done I am thankful that the things I struggled with on the last fast are not the things that I have to work through on this fast I am thankful that I talked to my brother the other day and got so much off of my chest I am thankful for my spiritual father who loves me and will not let me gracefully give up I am thankful for the group of leaders becaue each one helps me grow in a different way I am thankful for God's word that speaks to me everyday whether I want to accept it or not I am thankful for life, for abundance I am thankful that my list of problems are a list of wishes for someone else I am thankful for release from things that have had be in bondage I am thankful for the new grace and mercy of the day

9/10/2013

Today I am thankful that though it is overcast it did not rain on my way to work I am thankful that it is Tuesday I am thankful that we have a leadership meeting tonight I am thanful that God is working in ways that I don't even understand I am thankful for life I am thankful for health I am thankful for strength I am thankful for love I am thankful that God is showing me that love cannot be rushed but that it can be learned I am thankful for the love of God, for the love of my family, and for the love of my friends I am thankful that I am who God says I am and not who I or anyone else says that I am I am thankful for peace I am thankful for change I am thankful for Spirit I am thankful that I am learning to be spiritual I am thankful that I don't have to settle I am thankful that I am working with my favorite supervisor today I am thankful that what it looks like is not what it is I am thankful for the encouragement I feel today I am thankful that I am a princess and that no matter what anyone says I can live, love, learn, grow as such

9/9/13

Today I am thankful that God shows me more and more each day the type of life that I don't want to live I am thankful that no matter how many times I mess up God has given me multiple chances I am thankful for music I am thankful for a higher level of self-esteem than I used to have I am thankful that I know how ai should be treated and what deserve I am thankful for life I am thankful fo rthe forced growth that God is facilitating through my Pastor for me

9/6/2013

Today I am thankful that it is Friday That I get two days off before having to come back to work That I don;t have anything that I "HAVE TO DO" tonight That everything I read reminded me that I don't have to stay the way my flesh feels That there are only 22 minutes left in this day!!!!!

9/5/2013

Today I am thankful for protection, I almost got in a serious accident on the way home yesterday I am thankful that the evening should be good I am thankful that the work week is almost over. I am thank ful that though my wrist and hands are starting to hurt, I have the activity of my limbs.

9/4/2013

Missed a day again.....it seems that it is more pressing for me to write here when I'm feeling down which makes no sense. Like I don't know how to be thankful when I'm happ; smh. That needs to changed. Today I am thankful that I made it to work safely because I saw a crazy number of accidents I'm also thankful that it's my early day because I'm ready to go home and to bed.

9/2/2013

Today I am thankful for the day off That I accomplished what I set out to accomplish today That Aniya saw her 9th birthday yesterday That I may not be finished, but I'm getting better.......